About The Book

It is hard to accept the loss of the love we once had. There is a constant struggle between confronting the pain and the flashing memories together. Within the thick fog of grief, one would often wonder, When will I ever be fine again?

Mike is struggling with his grief from losing the love of his life. To be able to confront his loss, he keeps a diary where he channels his pain by writing messages for his lost love. Each chapter is introduced with a monthly entry that resonates the emptiness he feels for each day without her in his life. Through his diary, Mike walks readers through the psyche of a man moving on from his grief of his lost love.


“I didn’t know what I was thinking,” you started. “I was just scared that we were getting too close . . . maybe. I don’t even know,” you said, starting to cry a little more. “All I know is, when you didn’t text back Saturday night, it scared me that I might never talk to you again.”

“I’m sorry. I was in a movie when you sent the text, and by the time I got out, it was late and didn’t want to disturb you.”

“I’m sorry. Can you forgive me?” you asked, dabbing at your eyes again.

I pulled you in close to hug you, my head resting on your shoulder. “Amy, I love you. There’s nothing to forgive. I want you in my life, always.”

With that, you hugged back hard and wept. When your crying slowed, I turned my head slightly so I could kiss your cheek. I tasted the warm, salty tears that had made their way down your face. I then moved to your other cheek and kissed it, wanting to kiss all the tears away.

As we watched TV, I could feel her moving closer to me. I wasn’t totally sure what to do at first. I eventually went for broke and put my arm around her. With that, she nuzzled into my arm, and before I knew it, we were kissing. She tasted sweet, as if she had been just eating my favorite candy. We kissed hard for several minutes. Mary was almost as aggressive as June had been that time in her room.

June . . . Fuck! What was I thinking? I had a girlfriend! Why was I here making out with Mary when I had a girlfriend I should be making out with?

“How the hell can you do this to me?” she roared through gritted teeth.

“It just . . . happened,” I replied; my head hung a little low.

As I looked down, I noticed her clenched hands and, more importantly, her right hand, which had something pointy in it. Could it be?

Yes it was. It was a butter knife.

Readers’ Reactions


Jack Magnus

for Readers' Favorite

“Vassel’s characters are well defined and credible, and his story flows smoothly. Fine Again is a thought provoking and well written look at marriage and relationships; it’s highly recommended.”

Kathryn Bennett

for Readers’ Favorite

“This story will resound with anyone who has ever experienced devastating loss in their life and must find a way to deal with it, must find the hope through the darkness that seems as if it will never end. If you need a story that is deep and uplifting as well, this book is for you. It could be seen as a heavy read because of the emotional story that author Michael Vassel tells, but it is a truly fantastic story of love, loss, and learning to live and love again.”

R.J. Eastwood

Author, The Autopsy of Planet Earth: A Sci-Fi Novel

Vassel tells the story with passion and clarity. A great read for the romantic at heart. 5-Stars.”